You're Worth It

Journal Entry: November 5

I woke up late, I woke up tired...

*PERISCOPE NOTIFICATION*

I tuned in, by invitation, to a random guy, worshiping to start his day…

Worship is infectious. I began to worship. I did so the entire morning while getting ready for work. My worship entered into my prayer with my kids. Though I do not remember my prayer verbatim, it included:

*thanking God for the hedge of protection around my family.

*thanking Him for making our paths easy and straight today.

*thanking Him for grace, mercy, and favor.

By the time, I reached the end of my block, I heard “his financial blessing is coming”. I continued to give thanks. My heart was warm, filled with hope, and just grateful.

***turns on radio***

‘Worth Fighting For’, by Brian Courtney Wilson was on.

I absolutely love this song!!! The irony here is that I only know the hook:

Eyes haven't seen, ears haven't heard

All You have planned for me

I thought, “I'm worth fighting for"

Nothing can separate me from
Your love when there's so much
more still worth fighting for

God said, “If you truly believe that, why aren't you fighting for me. Am I not worth fighting for?” At this point, all I could do was cry – tears of revelation, hope, repentance, love.

*song plays, God speaks on* 

and nothing can separate me from

I thought back over the last couple of months. Many things, circumstances, people (self included), came too close to separating me from God, during this time period.

I was a stuck, feeling forsaken. I did everything I knew to do without any resolve, so I built walls (my defense mechanism). My focus was on everything but God.

Revelation: He had been fighting for me, though I couldn’t see it. He thought enough of me to keep me near, when I couldn’t fight for myself and wouldn’t fight for him.

Fear is paralyzing; it’ll make you a prisoner of the process*.

Regain focus. Be cautious of the things you give time and attention to.

Freedom comes with oppression (ridicule, condemnation, fear), obligation (God’s Way, friends, family), obstacles (work, racism, finance, temptation).

Suffer. Learn. Grow.

#RevelationInWorship

*"Prisoner of the Process" is lesson taught by Pastor Marcus Mobley of Armor of God Worship Center. Follow him on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, & Periscope