"After all, we know hide & seek can be a scary game, especially when we don't want to be found."
~Callie Hunter
On May 28, I received the following text:
Keep doing what you do...I pray and hope you continue to be motivated in perfecting your craft - that God has given you. It's okay to hide and be in the background, but don't let that hinder what could be a new calling. You were on my mind and I thought it was a good opportunity to pour into someone that has done the same for me. Stop playing hide and seek with God...and yourself.
Now this text came from one of my friends, from my young adult group, at church.
Of course, it literally gave me a jolt because
1. It was confirmation of my fears.
2. The student became the teacher and the vessel.
3. I was in an idle state emotionally, creatively, and spiritually.
4. I was cheating myself (and others) due to complacency at work.
Little Sister Outburst, as I affectionately call her, was true to her nickname (LOL). She blurted out something else, forcing me to ask myself hard questions:
How could I hide from myself?
Am I hiding from people?
Am I giving this my all?
New calling?
Was I playing hide and seek with God?
The answers to these questions came, from my Pastor, in a random conversation on June 28.
He told me the following:
You are passive-aggressive with a huge heart and broad skill-set. You only think you're okay with being in the background because you can transition into that space, but you're a leader and you belong out front. You give your opinions and feelings with shock-value, initially. Then you come back with a plan of action, producing an a-one job. You're an emotional being and that's okay because that's how God & Philly made you.
Yes, I was hiding from myself. I never thought of myself as hiding from God, but I was hiding from His calling or so I thought...
Dear Lord,
Thank You!!!
The longer you hide, the harder to be found...
Suffer. Learn. Grow.
#ComeOutComeOutWhereEverYouAre
