Going to 'NO'vember

Guard thy heart with all diligence, for out of it flows the issues of life. Proverbs 4:23

Welcome November. 

October has been the single-most difficult month for me - mind, body, and spirit. 

My patience has been tried, my faith tested, and my heart torn apart. The trials and tests came rapid fire from every aspect of my life.

I spent much of the month in tears, bitter, and afraid. 

Unwilling to write, unashamed of who I was, yet unable to climb out of that place.

I missed so much...

I missed giving opportunities. I missed leadership moments. 

I missed days of praying with my circle. I missed God a few times.

I missed events of close friends and family.

I failed to guard my heart, life's issues got the best of me.

I SHUT DOWN!

I began to build walls...again.

The best thing about it all, the Holy Spirit made concessions on my behalf.

The prayer circle kept praying and encouraging one another. 

Random friends would call and pray for me.

My children would pray and love on me. Hubby kept worshipping, letting me be.

God spoke to me repeatedly.

I could see the messages, but could barely hear them.

I knew it was God, but couldn't receive and believe.

Then I witnessed a miracle. I watched a 5 year old girl, with serious illnesses, be healed.

God healing her is a miraculous blessing, in itself. To witness her strength, courage, and heart was my miracle. She did not complain. She is an inspiration and lesson to me. 

November is my new year. 

NOvember Resolutions:

NO wall building

NO pity party

NO negative talk

NO doubt

NO assumptions

NO quitting

NO losing

NO complaining

NO guilt

The walls are coming down.

#ByeOctober