Wish I Knew Wednesday

W.I.S.H.

How many things have you wished for? How many times have you said "I wish"? How many times have you been faced with a decision, wishing you knew the effects of the outcome? Shoot, how many times have you just wished you knew what to do? It has been that kind of day...

Back Story:
April 5, 2012 is etched in my brain. I remember ending my prayer with the following words: I will have a good day; no matter what, I will thank You Lord. Imagine my surprise when the cops showed up at my job, asking for me by name. My home had been broken into at about 9am. The alarm company was unable to reach me because I hadn't updated my work number and didn't answer my cell phone (no phones in meetings). It gets even better...just two days before, we had installed new batteries and reactivated the system. Needless to say, I prayed all the way home. Got there to find that nothing had been stolen, only door needed repair, and the alarm scared them off.

So much more to this story, but no time. All I could do was squat in my driveway, cry, pray, and thank God. I sang (or quoted because singing ain't my gift) In the Middle of It, by Isaac Carree. It was that moment that I remembered my morning prayer.

I wish I knew how many times 'I wish' left my lips and bounced around my brain this day...

Fast Forward:
Today, I made a discovery in the workplace. It was some damaging information. I immediately felt unnerved and uneasy, unsure of how to proceed. I played out all of the scenarios in my head, wishing I knew the outcome of each. I prayed, briefly...just a "Lord tell me what to do".

I talked about it with a professional, two friends, and finally my Pastor. He posed all of the same questions to me that posed to myself. I was no closer to a decision nor knowing what to do.  The wisdom that he imparted was to weigh the consequences and to be just.

I determined that the consequences are too great for all parties involved to share this information. I decided to put it where it belongs, in His hands. My job is to pray, wait, and watch God fight this battle. It shall be revealed in His time. Peace be still...

His point was further driven home tonight's bible study. "Whatsoever you give, you shall receive." Oddly enough, Pastor wasn't the one teaching tonight. Duly noted Jesus!

Future Reference: 

In both scenarios, my active mind gets ahead of me, feeding my fears. Instead of wishing about the outcome or knowing what to do, I will purge, pray, and pursue what God has to say on the matter. This process isn't automatic, it takes practice.  Faith trumps fear.

Work. Invest. Share. Heal.

Character. Capacity. Communication. 

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