Suffer or Surrender

For quite some time now, God has been whispering these two words to me. More often than not, I felt like I received what he was telling me, only to learn later that I was wrong…I hadn’t received it. I hadn’t learned the lesson.

One night recently before bed, I kept saying in my head “surrender or suffer”. Then I asked myself “why am I suffering”, “haven’t I surrendered?”. My thoughts continued on at a furious pace until I penned this poem:

Ever felt trapped, as if stuck in a nightmare…

Unable to become free, like God isn’t near.

Embrace who you are, setting your fears free

No more suffering, open your eyes so you can see

A life of loss and pain to be left behind,

Become battles won with a renewed mind.

God taught me yet another lesson. This morning, while getting ready for work, I discovered that my necklace was terribly tangled. I was annoyed because I needed it to complete my outfit. I spent at least 20 minutes concentrating on detangling the necklace. I took deep breathes, I told myself not to quit, I started and stopped, but I refused to accept defeat because I was going to wear this necklace. Once it was detangled, I breathed a sigh of relief and was pleased with myself. Then I heard, “Why don’t you give me that attention and focus?” Immediately, I was no longer pleased with myself. God reminded me of what I already knew…I will suffer until I surrender.

Communication with God is a must. Only He can develop your character. You decide your capacity for suffering by your actions. Change before you have to.

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